This is a song that I have written recently. I like it, though it is slightly sad really...


I’ve never felt anything like it
Suddenly I feel like I am being spilt
Spilt in two, being torn apart
I now have a black heart
I am now full of pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I never realized you would break me
I never realized that I couldn’t see
Just how dangerous you were
Now you have run off with her
And I am left with memories
As I watch you play ‘happy families’
Standing in the rain
So full of pain

I’ve never felt anything like it
I’ve never known such hurt
I’ve never been in pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I always thought we’d last
But that’s all passed
I’m alone and you’re laughing
As you watch me crying
You had this planned
All else was dammed
You took an innocent woman,
Broke her, then ran

I’ve never felt anything like it
I’ve never known such hurt
I’ve never been in pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

You wanted in, you used me,
Then you discarded me
For the next innocent on
Well, hunny you won
You hurt me deeply
Until I couldn’t see
For all the tears I cried
Remembering your lies

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

You caused me such pain
That I broke in two
I’d never hurt that way
And I never will again

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I had a black heart
Full of pain
All because of you
I felt such pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

That girl I use to be
That girl you use to see
That girl is no longer here
That girl is no longer living in fear
That girl is dead
That girl is dead

That girl didn’t belong
She is long gone
And so here I am
I can do anything
I am fighting
For everything that is mine
So stop lying

That girl I use to be
That girl you use to see
That girl is no longer here
That girl is no longer living in fear
That girl is dead
That girl is dead

That girl couldn’t live
She simply couldn’t give
Not like this
She loved your kiss
But not me
Can’t you see
I am free
I am me

That girl I use to be
That girl you use to see
That girl is no longer here
That girl is no longer living in fear
That girl is dead
That girl is dead

It takes just a moment
To say hello
But it takes forever
To say goodbye
I never want to say
Goodbye to you

It takes just a moment
But I never took that moment
I never said hello
Now I can’t bring
Myself to say goodbye
To you, even though I should

It takes just a moment
To say hello
But it takes forever
To say goodbye

It takes just a moment
And I wish for the moment
To last forever
I wish I could stay
And be with you always
But its time for me to go

It takes just a moment
To say hello
But it takes forever
To say goodbye

It takes just a moment
Here I am in tears
Welling in my eyes
Knowing what Ive got to say
But this is taking forever
Because I’m saying goodbye

It takes just a moment
To say hello
But it takes forever
To say goodbye

I never want to say
Goodbye to you

I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week, 

It can hurt you, even kill you,
With just one blow,
It is so harsh, so unfair,     
So difficult to understand,
But yet, last week it brought me,
So close to the edge, and it showed me,
All the secrets of this so called life,
I have found myself living,

I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week, 

It can be so sad
Take away from you those you love,
In a heartbeat, just like that,
And you never even had chance to say bye,
But yet, last week, I found a lover,
And it was because of this life,
That I found him,
So maybe it’s not all that sad,

I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week,

It can make you happy,
For no apparent reason,
You can suddenly find yourself smiling,
And have a warm, fuzzy feeling inside,
Or it can break you down,
With tears pouring down your cheeks,
Long winding rivers flowing from your eyes,
And you can hardly stand for the pain your holding inside

I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week,

I said I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week

The way you treat me
The way you love me
The way you walk
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

As I walk through life
There are many things
I just don’t understand
No matter how hard I try
I just can’t see how you
Can love me, yet leave me
The way you walk towards me
That confident swagger
I know what is going to happen
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You pick me up, whirl me round
As you walk through the door
You kiss me and hold
I know you love me today
You touch me so much
I can barely hold in my
Love for you
You are my soul
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You love me hard
And deep, you touch
Me where it hurts
Then you leave me
Lying there loving yet
Hating you for making
Me feel so worthless
You are confusing me
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
 Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You hold me close
Kiss me deep
Never leave me
Love me always
I feel special now
You make me whole
I love you so much
I’m never leaving you
You are my heart
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

My Nannie Gave Me The Idea For This Song, When We Were Driving Home One Winter Night, She Said "The Last Time We Saw Him, Was When The Snow Was On The Ground". The Moment We Got Home I Ran Up To My Room And Wrote This Song

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was the last time I saw you,
I wonder, where are you now,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
You walked into my life with that smile
Dazzling enough to blind any level headed girl,
You were wild, passionate and so loveable
Every night I dreamt of you are your love,
Love I wished to feel every moment of the day,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
We talked in the firelight
Made love in the moonlight, and I told you
I loved you and you said you loved me too,
You lead me into your whirlwind spider web
That caught my heart so perfectly,
You made me believe what
We had could last but it wasn’t meant to be,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
You took me in your arms, held me,
Made love to me so many times,
You wrapped me tightly into my heart,
I feel lost without you now,
We had something I thought was so
Special but you left without a word,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was the last time I saw you,
I wonder, where are you now,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

I Wrote This Song For Sara, Because She Saved My Life. And I Love Her More Than Words Can Ever Explain. She Is My Surrogate Mother x

You broke my walls,
I never thought I could let you in
No matter how much I wanted to,
I was just afraid to trust you
But you proved me wrong every day,
Showed me you wouldn’t ever hurt me,
You stood by my side and
Helped me cope, helped me survive

Why I will never know,
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
 Yes, I will never know why

You showed me you could be trusted
I never thought I would again
Yet you showed me I could
You let me cry on your shoulder,
Let me unburned my fears on you
And slowly I did start to trust
Because I realized you wanted to help
Help me get my life back
And you broke that wall around my heart

Why I will never know,                                                
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
Yes, I will never know why

And so I now just want to say this,
Over time you have shown me that
Some things have to be done,
Some things have to be said
So I am going to do and say this,
Without you I wouldn’t be here today,
The person I am today
Living the life I am
Please let me say this,

Why I will never know,
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
Yes, I will never know why

Yet now I feel I don’t have to know
Why you did what you did
And why you said what you said
But thank you from the bottom of my heart,
And I am truly grateful for all that
You have done for me
You are totally amazing
I’m glad you are who you are.
You changed my life. 

You help me find my way
Through every day
With a light shinning so bright
It lights up even the darkest night,
Though I didn’t know where I was going,
I had never taken this road before, something
Told me this was right and with you beside me
Telling me to take the next step, and to see
I could do this, and I would survive,
And I would find a way to live
My life again and forget the horror
Of the past, you were my teacher,
You taught me how to live my life again
You showed me how to beat this pain

Before you came
I was so lost,
Alone and scared,
Not knowing where
I was going,
Constantly running
From those I though
Would hurt me
And then one day
I ran into
Your open arms
You walked with me

I always knew if I was sad,
You would be there, and never got mad
At me no matter how horrid I was to you
And you really are so totally true,
To those you care for, you always walked with me
And helped, tried to make me see
What you do, I am so pleased have walked with you,
I now I see what you always knew,
Everyone is special, you taught me to see that,
And even when you were busy you had time for a chat,
You made me smile, made me laugh, made me believe,
And though you didn’t understand, you let me grieve,
You were always there on the good days and the bad ones,
My love and respect for you ever deepens,

Before you came
I was so lost,
Alone and scared,
Not knowing where
I was going,
Constantly running
From those I though
Would hurt me
And then one day
I ran into
Your open arms
You walked with me. 

There was once a time,
When I felt like even if,
I left this place, and never came back,
No one would ever notice I had gone,
I didn’t realize this journey,
Would show me who I am

After all this time,
I have finally realized,
This journey I have been on,
Has made me who I am,

At one point I was so torn up,
Broken deep inside,
I thought I would never be whole again,
I felt nothing but pain,
And couldn’t understand what it felt like,
To be happy, yet I know now, who I am

After all this time,
I have finally realized,
This journey I have been on,
Has made me who I am,

This life has left me,
With many scares,
But these scars show me,
Just how far I’ve come,
From those day when I never knew,
Whether this life was worth living,

After all this time,
I have finally realized,
This journey I have been on,
Has made me who I am,

Today I stand here,
Happy and free,
Ready to show the world,
This life has made me who I am
And I am thankful,
For all this life has taught me

After all this time,
I have finally realized,
This journey I have been on,
Has made me who I am, 

I know all the bridges I’ve burnt,
Can’t always be rebuilt again
But with you standing here,
The past is no longer hurting me

Over time I have learnt
That when you hold my hand, this pain,
Starts to disappear
I am beginning to see

That it’s the future that’s important
Not the complications of the past
I am here now, with you
Lying nearly asleep in your bed

I no longer want to rant
About making us last
About what you do
Because without you I feel almost dead,

You are all that I need,
All that I want to feel
Inside of me,
My heart I gave to you
The day we met,
Please make me yours today,

I was running away from this life
I ran straight into your love,
You caught me,
Stopped me and saved my heart,

From being hurt by that knife
Now we fly like a pair of white doves,
I now no longer have to flee,
Believe me, this is the start, 

Of something totally amazing
You and I, we belong together,
With each other
I have never known something like this before,

And so I’m going,
To tell you, I’m never,
Being with another,
That day with you I saw,

You are all that I need,
All that I want to feel
Inside of me,
My heart I gave to you
The day we met,
Please make me yours today,

Tell me you love me, like I love you,
Tell me you truly care,
You couldn’t live without me by your side
You want me with you forever,

I ask you so I can see what you do,
Though I know what I’m asking for is rare,
You say you would have died
Without me, you say we belong together

You say you love me
You need me with you forever,
Until death do we part,
Then you kiss me; carry me to our bed,

You hold the golden key,
To my heart, we are together
Now, you gave me your heart,
That night you said,

You are all that I need,
All that I want to feel
Inside of me,
My heart I gave to you
The day we met,
Please make me yours today.