This is a song that I have written recently. I like it, though it is slightly sad really...


I’ve never felt anything like it
Suddenly I feel like I am being spilt
Spilt in two, being torn apart
I now have a black heart
I am now full of pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I never realized you would break me
I never realized that I couldn’t see
Just how dangerous you were
Now you have run off with her
And I am left with memories
As I watch you play ‘happy families’
Standing in the rain
So full of pain

I’ve never felt anything like it
I’ve never known such hurt
I’ve never been in pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I always thought we’d last
But that’s all passed
I’m alone and you’re laughing
As you watch me crying
You had this planned
All else was dammed
You took an innocent woman,
Broke her, then ran

I’ve never felt anything like it
I’ve never known such hurt
I’ve never been in pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

You wanted in, you used me,
Then you discarded me
For the next innocent on
Well, hunny you won
You hurt me deeply
Until I couldn’t see
For all the tears I cried
Remembering your lies

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

You caused me such pain
That I broke in two
I’d never hurt that way
And I never will again

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I had a black heart
Full of pain
All because of you
I felt such pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

Wrote this song yesterday...it was going to be totally different, about heart break, but instead I found that I simply wasn't in the mood to write a sad song and so it turned out like this...


In your arms I feel so lost
Lost in loves endless embrace
I need you beside me, no matter the cost
I need to look you in the face
At the look of love so true
Because who am I, with you
Without you I am lost

Lost, in a whirlpool of feeling
Lost, in an understanding of loving
Lost, in a hope for marrying
Lost, in a desire for kissing
Lost in, lost in all of you

Looking in your eyes I feel lost
Lost in everything you are
Because without you I am lost
So never wander far
Because without you I am nothing
No matter what you are saying
Without you I am lost

Lost, in a whirlpool of feeling
Lost, in an understanding of loving
Lost, in a hope for marrying
Lost, in a desire for kissing
Lost in, lost in all of you

Lost, in a whirlpool of feeling
Lost, in an understanding of loving
Lost, in a hope for marrying
Lost, in a desire for kissing
Lost in, lost in all of you

Feeling your touch I am lost
Lost in memories of us together
Where, without you I am lost
I will stop loving you sometime never
We will last always and forever
Because you are my only lover
Without you I am lost

Lost, in a whirlpool of feeling
Lost, in an understanding of loving
Lost, in a hope for marrying
Lost, in a desire for kissing
Lost in, lost in all of you

Feeling what I do
I know that you
Are the only one for me
Can’t you see
That without you
Without you I am lost

Lost, in a whirlpool of feeling
Lost, in an understanding of loving
Lost, in a hope for marrying
Lost, in a desire for kissing
Lost in, lost in all of you

Can’t you see
That without you
Without you I am lost

If you love me
Let me know please
If you don’t
Let me go please
Tell me now,
Do you love me?

Do you love me?
If so, show me
Show me how,
How you feel,
Feel inside

Do you love me?
Because I can’t see
What your eyes are hiding
Are you lying?
Do you love me?
Is there a ‘we’?
Because I don’t know
I feel so low
Do you love me?

If you love me
Let me know please
If you don’t
Let me go please
Tell me now,
Do you love me?

Do you love me?
If so, tell me,
Tell me how,
How you feel,
Feel inside

Do you love me?
Really care for me?
Do you see you together,
Together forever?
Do you love me?
Do you want me?
Why are you so cold?
Why do you have to scold?
Do you love me?

If you love me
Let me know please
If you don’t
Let me go please
Tell me now,
Do you love me?

If you love me
Let me know please
If you don’t
Let me go please
Tell me now,
Do you love me?

Do you love me?
If so hold me,
Hold me close
Feel me
Tell me
Love me
Care for me
Coz I need to know,
Know if you
Love me

Do you love me?
If you love me
Let me know please
If you don’t
Let me go please
Tell me now,
Do you love me?

Do you, do you
Do you love me?

His eyes, his nose, his mouth
His ears, his hands, his body
His laugh, his smile, his touch
I’m on fire, burning inside
He’s taken me, stolen my heart

One sunny afternoon
I was running through
The beautiful blue river
When I saw him there
Watching me like I was him

That was when I felt
The fire light, when I knew
He was the one for me
He smiled, and shivers
Ran down my spine

I couldn’t stop looking
But we never spoke
Then he left
Left me alone
In the beautiful blue river

I went home feeling
Loved and lost
Hope and despair
Wondering how he
Had stolen my heart

My stolen heart
Was taken by a
Beautiful cowboy
One sunny afternoon

The next day
I went to the river
I needed to see him
Once more to say
How he had stolen my heart

But he never came
He never came to me
I was left alone again
Feeling so sad, I wished
For him so badly

I went to the river every day
Hoping to see him once more
But as the weeks past
I never saw him again
And was giving up hope

The fire inside me
Was dying, it was time
For me to move on
It was clear, we were not
Meant to be

My stolen heart
Was taken by a
Beautiful cowboy
One sunny afternoon

It was several months
Later when I next went
To the beautiful blue river
And what I saw
Stolen my breathe away

There was my cowboy
Sitting on the river bank
Waiting and watching
He turned and saw me
My heart leapt

As he came running and
Took me in his arms
And hissed me
That day we spent
Loving each other

My stolen heart
Was taken by
A beautiful cowboy
One sunny afternoon

It was three months
Later that we married
One sunny afternoon
On the banks of the
Beautiful blue river

We honeymooned
In California
And built our house
Less than six miles
From where we first met

Just under a year later
Our first child
A baby girl Carrie
Two more followed
We had a family

As they grew
So did our love
For each other
We never parted
Together always

My stolen heart
Was taken by
A beautiful cowboy
One sunny afternoon

My stolen heart
Was taken by
A beautiful cowboy
One sunny afternoon

The bridges I’ve burnt,
They make me, who I am,
They have scared me,
Torn me apart,
But they have shown me, who I really am,
Underneath all this hurt and pain,
I know that they can’t always be rebuilt,
The bridges I’ve burnt,

There have been many bridges through my life
Some have cut me like a knife,
Others have shown me love,
As pure as a white dove,
But all of them have helped make me,
Who I am today,

The bridges I’ve burnt,
They tell the story of my life,
They have cut me up,
Left me for dead,
But they have made,
 Me stronger, and happier today,
I know that I can’t always fix,
The bridges I’ve burnt, 

There have been many bridges through my life
Some have cut me like a knife,
Others have shown me love,
As pure as a white dove,
But all of them have helped make me,
Who I am today,

The bridges I’ve burnt,
If I walked down their paths again,
I could tell you step by step,
The journey I would be taking,
This is because it is the journey,
Of my life, of my past,
And I remember all those I’ve shared it with,
And all those bridges I’ve burnt

There have been many bridges through my life
Some have cut me like a knife,
Others have shown me love,
As pure as a white dove,
But all of them have helped make me,
Who I am today,

There have been many bridges through my life
Some have cut me like a knife,
Others have shown me love,
As pure as a white dove,
But all of them have helped make me,
Who I am today

I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week, 

It can hurt you, even kill you,
With just one blow,
It is so harsh, so unfair,     
So difficult to understand,
But yet, last week it brought me,
So close to the edge, and it showed me,
All the secrets of this so called life,
I have found myself living,

I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week, 

It can be so sad
Take away from you those you love,
In a heartbeat, just like that,
And you never even had chance to say bye,
But yet, last week, I found a lover,
And it was because of this life,
That I found him,
So maybe it’s not all that sad,

I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week,

It can make you happy,
For no apparent reason,
You can suddenly find yourself smiling,
And have a warm, fuzzy feeling inside,
Or it can break you down,
With tears pouring down your cheeks,
Long winding rivers flowing from your eyes,
And you can hardly stand for the pain your holding inside

I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week,

I said I sometimes wonder why
Wonder why life,
Can be so complicated,
It can hurt you, like a knife,
Or can be as sweet as that guy
I met last week

The way you treat me
The way you love me
The way you walk
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

As I walk through life
There are many things
I just don’t understand
No matter how hard I try
I just can’t see how you
Can love me, yet leave me
The way you walk towards me
That confident swagger
I know what is going to happen
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You pick me up, whirl me round
As you walk through the door
You kiss me and hold
I know you love me today
You touch me so much
I can barely hold in my
Love for you
You are my soul
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You love me hard
And deep, you touch
Me where it hurts
Then you leave me
Lying there loving yet
Hating you for making
Me feel so worthless
You are confusing me
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
 Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You hold me close
Kiss me deep
Never leave me
Love me always
I feel special now
You make me whole
I love you so much
I’m never leaving you
You are my heart
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

My Nannie Gave Me The Idea For This Song, When We Were Driving Home One Winter Night, She Said "The Last Time We Saw Him, Was When The Snow Was On The Ground". The Moment We Got Home I Ran Up To My Room And Wrote This Song

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was the last time I saw you,
I wonder, where are you now,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
You walked into my life with that smile
Dazzling enough to blind any level headed girl,
You were wild, passionate and so loveable
Every night I dreamt of you are your love,
Love I wished to feel every moment of the day,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
We talked in the firelight
Made love in the moonlight, and I told you
I loved you and you said you loved me too,
You lead me into your whirlwind spider web
That caught my heart so perfectly,
You made me believe what
We had could last but it wasn’t meant to be,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
You took me in your arms, held me,
Made love to me so many times,
You wrapped me tightly into my heart,
I feel lost without you now,
We had something I thought was so
Special but you left without a word,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was the last time I saw you,
I wonder, where are you now,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

I Wrote This Song For Sara, Because She Saved My Life. And I Love Her More Than Words Can Ever Explain. She Is My Surrogate Mother x

You broke my walls,
I never thought I could let you in
No matter how much I wanted to,
I was just afraid to trust you
But you proved me wrong every day,
Showed me you wouldn’t ever hurt me,
You stood by my side and
Helped me cope, helped me survive

Why I will never know,
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
 Yes, I will never know why

You showed me you could be trusted
I never thought I would again
Yet you showed me I could
You let me cry on your shoulder,
Let me unburned my fears on you
And slowly I did start to trust
Because I realized you wanted to help
Help me get my life back
And you broke that wall around my heart

Why I will never know,                                                
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
Yes, I will never know why

And so I now just want to say this,
Over time you have shown me that
Some things have to be done,
Some things have to be said
So I am going to do and say this,
Without you I wouldn’t be here today,
The person I am today
Living the life I am
Please let me say this,

Why I will never know,
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
Yes, I will never know why

Yet now I feel I don’t have to know
Why you did what you did
And why you said what you said
But thank you from the bottom of my heart,
And I am truly grateful for all that
You have done for me
You are totally amazing
I’m glad you are who you are.
You changed my life. 

Today I came here to ask you something God,
Why me? Why does he love me? I’m nothing special
I’m not pretty or sexy or that talented, I’m no A grade
Student so why me? Please answer me, I need to know.
I think that he loves me but why I don’t know
I can’t see in me what he does so why me?

He could have anyone, he’s smart, funny and drop dead gorgeous
Yet he chooses me. He could have the head cheerleader,
The teachers daughter, anyone so why me?

Today I wish to find out the answer to my question,
I wish to know why me? I am lost, confused and a bit
Worried, what if he is playing me? What if the love he
Is showing me is something he doesn’t really feel? I
Just want to know why he choose me, everyone is jealous but
I can’t see in me what he does so why me?

He could have anyone, he’s smart, funny and drop dead gorgeous
Yet he chooses me. He could have the head cheerleader,
The teachers daughter, anyone so why me?

Today I know I should confront him, but I am just too
Scared, I love him and am afraid of losing him because I
Can’t help but doubt him. Why me? Why did he
Fall for me? I know I should trust him yet it’s
All too good to be real, I’m not anything special
I can’t see in me what he does so why me?

He could have anyone, he’s smart, funny and drop dead gorgeous
Yet he chooses me. He could have the head cheerleader,
The teachers daughter, anyone so why me?

He could have anyone, he’s smart, funny and drop dead gorgeous
Yet he chooses me. He could have the head cheerleader,
The teachers daughter, anyone so why me?

Please God tell me, why me? Why me? I said why me?