This is a song that I have written recently. I like it, though it is slightly sad really...


I’ve never felt anything like it
Suddenly I feel like I am being spilt
Spilt in two, being torn apart
I now have a black heart
I am now full of pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I never realized you would break me
I never realized that I couldn’t see
Just how dangerous you were
Now you have run off with her
And I am left with memories
As I watch you play ‘happy families’
Standing in the rain
So full of pain

I’ve never felt anything like it
I’ve never known such hurt
I’ve never been in pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I always thought we’d last
But that’s all passed
I’m alone and you’re laughing
As you watch me crying
You had this planned
All else was dammed
You took an innocent woman,
Broke her, then ran

I’ve never felt anything like it
I’ve never known such hurt
I’ve never been in pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

You wanted in, you used me,
Then you discarded me
For the next innocent on
Well, hunny you won
You hurt me deeply
Until I couldn’t see
For all the tears I cried
Remembering your lies

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

You caused me such pain
That I broke in two
I’d never hurt that way
And I never will again

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

I had a black heart
Full of pain
All because of you
I felt such pain

Pain is my only emotion
I am full of confusion
Pain fills my waking
Thoughts, and my sleeping
Nights, I am in pain

It takes just a moment
To say hello
But it takes forever
To say goodbye
I never want to say
Goodbye to you

It takes just a moment
But I never took that moment
I never said hello
Now I can’t bring
Myself to say goodbye
To you, even though I should

It takes just a moment
To say hello
But it takes forever
To say goodbye

It takes just a moment
And I wish for the moment
To last forever
I wish I could stay
And be with you always
But its time for me to go

It takes just a moment
To say hello
But it takes forever
To say goodbye

It takes just a moment
Here I am in tears
Welling in my eyes
Knowing what Ive got to say
But this is taking forever
Because I’m saying goodbye

It takes just a moment
To say hello
But it takes forever
To say goodbye

I never want to say
Goodbye to you

The way you treat me
The way you love me
The way you walk
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

As I walk through life
There are many things
I just don’t understand
No matter how hard I try
I just can’t see how you
Can love me, yet leave me
The way you walk towards me
That confident swagger
I know what is going to happen
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You pick me up, whirl me round
As you walk through the door
You kiss me and hold
I know you love me today
You touch me so much
I can barely hold in my
Love for you
You are my soul
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You love me hard
And deep, you touch
Me where it hurts
Then you leave me
Lying there loving yet
Hating you for making
Me feel so worthless
You are confusing me
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
 Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

You hold me close
Kiss me deep
Never leave me
Love me always
I feel special now
You make me whole
I love you so much
I’m never leaving you
You are my heart
Some things I don’t understand

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

The way to love
The way to feel
The way to live
Some things I don’t understand
You are one of them
You are one of them

My Nannie Gave Me The Idea For This Song, When We Were Driving Home One Winter Night, She Said "The Last Time We Saw Him, Was When The Snow Was On The Ground". The Moment We Got Home I Ran Up To My Room And Wrote This Song

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was the last time I saw you,
I wonder, where are you now,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
You walked into my life with that smile
Dazzling enough to blind any level headed girl,
You were wild, passionate and so loveable
Every night I dreamt of you are your love,
Love I wished to feel every moment of the day,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
We talked in the firelight
Made love in the moonlight, and I told you
I loved you and you said you loved me too,
You lead me into your whirlwind spider web
That caught my heart so perfectly,
You made me believe what
We had could last but it wasn’t meant to be,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
You took me in your arms, held me,
Made love to me so many times,
You wrapped me tightly into my heart,
I feel lost without you now,
We had something I thought was so
Special but you left without a word,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

When the snow was on the ground,
That was the last time I saw you,
I wonder, where are you now,
When the snow was on the ground,

When the snow was on the ground,
That was when I fell for you,
When the snow was on the ground
I met you, kissed you, loved you,
When the snow was on the ground

I Wrote This Song For Sara, Because She Saved My Life. And I Love Her More Than Words Can Ever Explain. She Is My Surrogate Mother x

You broke my walls,
I never thought I could let you in
No matter how much I wanted to,
I was just afraid to trust you
But you proved me wrong every day,
Showed me you wouldn’t ever hurt me,
You stood by my side and
Helped me cope, helped me survive

Why I will never know,
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
 Yes, I will never know why

You showed me you could be trusted
I never thought I would again
Yet you showed me I could
You let me cry on your shoulder,
Let me unburned my fears on you
And slowly I did start to trust
Because I realized you wanted to help
Help me get my life back
And you broke that wall around my heart

Why I will never know,                                                
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
Yes, I will never know why

And so I now just want to say this,
Over time you have shown me that
Some things have to be done,
Some things have to be said
So I am going to do and say this,
Without you I wouldn’t be here today,
The person I am today
Living the life I am
Please let me say this,

Why I will never know,
Never know why you choose to help me
Choose to let me close
When I needed someone,
Yes, I will never know why

Yet now I feel I don’t have to know
Why you did what you did
And why you said what you said
But thank you from the bottom of my heart,
And I am truly grateful for all that
You have done for me
You are totally amazing
I’m glad you are who you are.
You changed my life. 

Today I came here to ask you something God,
Why me? Why does he love me? I’m nothing special
I’m not pretty or sexy or that talented, I’m no A grade
Student so why me? Please answer me, I need to know.
I think that he loves me but why I don’t know
I can’t see in me what he does so why me?

He could have anyone, he’s smart, funny and drop dead gorgeous
Yet he chooses me. He could have the head cheerleader,
The teachers daughter, anyone so why me?

Today I wish to find out the answer to my question,
I wish to know why me? I am lost, confused and a bit
Worried, what if he is playing me? What if the love he
Is showing me is something he doesn’t really feel? I
Just want to know why he choose me, everyone is jealous but
I can’t see in me what he does so why me?

He could have anyone, he’s smart, funny and drop dead gorgeous
Yet he chooses me. He could have the head cheerleader,
The teachers daughter, anyone so why me?

Today I know I should confront him, but I am just too
Scared, I love him and am afraid of losing him because I
Can’t help but doubt him. Why me? Why did he
Fall for me? I know I should trust him yet it’s
All too good to be real, I’m not anything special
I can’t see in me what he does so why me?

He could have anyone, he’s smart, funny and drop dead gorgeous
Yet he chooses me. He could have the head cheerleader,
The teachers daughter, anyone so why me?

He could have anyone, he’s smart, funny and drop dead gorgeous
Yet he chooses me. He could have the head cheerleader,
The teachers daughter, anyone so why me?

Please God tell me, why me? Why me? I said why me?

You help me find my way
Through every day
With a light shinning so bright
It lights up even the darkest night,
Though I didn’t know where I was going,
I had never taken this road before, something
Told me this was right and with you beside me
Telling me to take the next step, and to see
I could do this, and I would survive,
And I would find a way to live
My life again and forget the horror
Of the past, you were my teacher,
You taught me how to live my life again
You showed me how to beat this pain

Before you came
I was so lost,
Alone and scared,
Not knowing where
I was going,
Constantly running
From those I though
Would hurt me
And then one day
I ran into
Your open arms
You walked with me

I always knew if I was sad,
You would be there, and never got mad
At me no matter how horrid I was to you
And you really are so totally true,
To those you care for, you always walked with me
And helped, tried to make me see
What you do, I am so pleased have walked with you,
I now I see what you always knew,
Everyone is special, you taught me to see that,
And even when you were busy you had time for a chat,
You made me smile, made me laugh, made me believe,
And though you didn’t understand, you let me grieve,
You were always there on the good days and the bad ones,
My love and respect for you ever deepens,

Before you came
I was so lost,
Alone and scared,
Not knowing where
I was going,
Constantly running
From those I though
Would hurt me
And then one day
I ran into
Your open arms
You walked with me. 

There was once a time,
When I felt like even if,
I left this place, and never came back,
No one would ever notice I had gone,
I didn’t realize this journey,
Would show me who I am

After all this time,
I have finally realized,
This journey I have been on,
Has made me who I am,

At one point I was so torn up,
Broken deep inside,
I thought I would never be whole again,
I felt nothing but pain,
And couldn’t understand what it felt like,
To be happy, yet I know now, who I am

After all this time,
I have finally realized,
This journey I have been on,
Has made me who I am,

This life has left me,
With many scares,
But these scars show me,
Just how far I’ve come,
From those day when I never knew,
Whether this life was worth living,

After all this time,
I have finally realized,
This journey I have been on,
Has made me who I am,

Today I stand here,
Happy and free,
Ready to show the world,
This life has made me who I am
And I am thankful,
For all this life has taught me

After all this time,
I have finally realized,
This journey I have been on,
Has made me who I am, 

I feel nothing but pain,
It’s all I know,
All I’ve ever known
And it’s because of you 

You hurt me, deep inside,
Broke me, tore me apart,
And you did it knowingly
You knew you hurt me
Now you smile and
Watch me cry over you

Laughing at my pain,
Knowing you caused it,
You are why I’ve built
These walls so high

You hurt me, deep inside,
Broke me, tore me apart,
And you did it knowingly
You knew you hurt me
Now you smile and
Watch me cry over you

These walls you forced
Me to build mean
I can no longer trust
I hope you are happy now

You hurt me, deep inside,
Broke me, tore me apart,
And you did it knowingly
You knew you hurt me
Now you smile and
Watch me cry over you

But don’t worry, I’ll survive,
I won’t be hurt again
The way you hurt me
You will be the only one

You hurt me, deep inside,
Broke me, tore me apart,
And you did it knowingly
You knew you hurt me
Now you smile and
Watch me cry over you

You hurt me, deep inside,
Broke me, tore me apart,
And you did it knowingly
You knew you hurt me
Now you smile and
Watch me cry over you

There was a point in my life,
When I was hurt, it was like a knife,
Stuck in my side,
I always lied,
About the pain I was in,
I know it’s a sin,
But I couldn’t see another way out,
And all did was doubt
Myself, and all those around me,
Yet now I can see,
That you came and changed my world,

There is so much,
I really want to say,
Right now but please,
If nothing else,
Just let me say this,

You, you, you
Are amazing
And what you,
Do, do, do
Shows me that,
You, you, you,
Have changed my
World

You helped me through
All the ups and downs, what you do,
Just amazed me, so please,
Use these keys,
Unlock this,
Once broken heart,
And now let this life start
Anew, I know it will be good,
So I believe I should,
Put my trust in you,
Because nothing you do,
Hurts me, you changed my world, 

I know nothing,
I can say, will make,
You see how much
You mean to me, but
Just let me say this,

You, you, you
Are amazing
And what you,
Do, do, do
Shows me that,
You, you, you,
Have changed my
World

You have been so good to me,
And only now I see,
That I should have trusted
You from the start, 

But my heart
Wouldn’t let you near
It was so full of fear,
Thinking you would hurt it
But now here I sit
With my head full of thought
About how you fought
To make me see how much you cared

And so I
Need to say
How thankful I am
I know you don’t want
To here this but please
Just let me say this

You, you, you
Are amazing
And what you,
Do, do, do
Shows me that,
You, you, you,
Have changed my 
World

And so I just want to say,
That if there was any way
In which I could make you see,
How much you mean to me,
Please let me know,
For there is nothing I wouldn’t
Do for you,
You have changed my world,
Thank you, from the bottom
Of my heart.

You, you, you
Are amazing
And what you,
Do, do, do,
Shows me that,
You, you, you,
Have changed my
World